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Jul. 13th, 2007 01:50 am
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Just because you're extremely paranoid doesn't mean there isn't a trapjawed demon from the NeverNever behind you wanting to bite your ass off.
Sometimes I think I would be a LOT happier if I could simply slip fully into paranoid delusions. This half-in half-out does not do wonders for my blood pressure nor my mental well being.
Logically I know there's not some conspiracy. Have no fear on that. I DO realize that I am simply being paranoid. I'm not important enough in the overall grand scheme of things. It's foolish to think that there might be an individual or organization out to slowly destroy me.
BUT FUCK IF IT DOESN'T FEEL THAT WAY!!!
Too much shit hitting me all at once.
1.) Property taxes being half again the amount which my folks were paying for this property. Even though I am under Homestead Exemption and they were not. The *cough* pleasant deskwhore at the government building told me this was due to the property taxes being uncapped when it was sold.
Yeah. I can understand that. But I can't see how it raised THAT much. Especially when it's appraised at a lesser value than when my dad owned the place.
So there's well over 400 dollars that I wasn't budgeting for which are due the week before Dragon*Con. Which amounts to close to a 1/3 of each of the take-home from the two paychecks I have coming before the taxes are due.
Yea, lovely ...
2.) An old arrest I had back in the 90s has come back to haunt me. (- No, this isn't related to the tickets Jaime. This is a totally different matter. -) The records of me paying the fine and court fees from back in 97 were "lost" somehow. And, of course, it's one of the few pieces of paperwork which I have managed to lose over the last DECADE since the incident.
So I had the choice of paying the fines AGAIN plus additional court costs, or go to trial. So, of course, I went for the trial. During the pretrial, the prosecutor said that he did not want to hear my side of the story. He gave me a plea agreement and told me that if I didn't take it he was going to push for jail time. Gotta love civil servants like that, no?
I mulled over it. Yes, we're supposed to be innocent until proven guilty. But we also know how much BULLSHIT that is. I could elect to have the courts appoint me an attorney. But WHEN we lost, I'd not only have the jailtime, the fines and court costs but also the cost of the attorney because I make JUST over the limit to get pro bono AND lost wages for the month I'd be in jail. (- If I didn't get fired outright for it. -)
SO I took the plea agreement. The fines ended up being less than what the cost of an attorney would be. But still more than I budgeted for. And I have 30 days to pay them.
And I have a misdemeanor on my record now.
3.) This is the paycheck they decided to inform us that the "attendence incentive" is being done away with. So there goes the extra day of PTO I was counting on in order to be able to drive to Dragon*Con instead of flying.
And with all the extra costs that have sprung up ... there's no way I can fly.
There are other minor things going on as well. But it all adds up to one great big ball of shit.
These are the reasons why I do not believe in karma nor the vaunted three-fold law that many pagans seem to buy into. Seriously, what have I done that was so bad as to warrant karma doing this?
Sometimes I think I would be a LOT happier if I could simply slip fully into paranoid delusions. This half-in half-out does not do wonders for my blood pressure nor my mental well being.
Logically I know there's not some conspiracy. Have no fear on that. I DO realize that I am simply being paranoid. I'm not important enough in the overall grand scheme of things. It's foolish to think that there might be an individual or organization out to slowly destroy me.
BUT FUCK IF IT DOESN'T FEEL THAT WAY!!!
Too much shit hitting me all at once.
1.) Property taxes being half again the amount which my folks were paying for this property. Even though I am under Homestead Exemption and they were not. The *cough* pleasant deskwhore at the government building told me this was due to the property taxes being uncapped when it was sold.
Yeah. I can understand that. But I can't see how it raised THAT much. Especially when it's appraised at a lesser value than when my dad owned the place.
So there's well over 400 dollars that I wasn't budgeting for which are due the week before Dragon*Con. Which amounts to close to a 1/3 of each of the take-home from the two paychecks I have coming before the taxes are due.
Yea, lovely ...
2.) An old arrest I had back in the 90s has come back to haunt me. (- No, this isn't related to the tickets Jaime. This is a totally different matter. -) The records of me paying the fine and court fees from back in 97 were "lost" somehow. And, of course, it's one of the few pieces of paperwork which I have managed to lose over the last DECADE since the incident.
So I had the choice of paying the fines AGAIN plus additional court costs, or go to trial. So, of course, I went for the trial. During the pretrial, the prosecutor said that he did not want to hear my side of the story. He gave me a plea agreement and told me that if I didn't take it he was going to push for jail time. Gotta love civil servants like that, no?
I mulled over it. Yes, we're supposed to be innocent until proven guilty. But we also know how much BULLSHIT that is. I could elect to have the courts appoint me an attorney. But WHEN we lost, I'd not only have the jailtime, the fines and court costs but also the cost of the attorney because I make JUST over the limit to get pro bono AND lost wages for the month I'd be in jail. (- If I didn't get fired outright for it. -)
SO I took the plea agreement. The fines ended up being less than what the cost of an attorney would be. But still more than I budgeted for. And I have 30 days to pay them.
And I have a misdemeanor on my record now.
3.) This is the paycheck they decided to inform us that the "attendence incentive" is being done away with. So there goes the extra day of PTO I was counting on in order to be able to drive to Dragon*Con instead of flying.
And with all the extra costs that have sprung up ... there's no way I can fly.
There are other minor things going on as well. But it all adds up to one great big ball of shit.
These are the reasons why I do not believe in karma nor the vaunted three-fold law that many pagans seem to buy into. Seriously, what have I done that was so bad as to warrant karma doing this?
